I’m just back from Santa Monica, where I had the most amazing time with Michael Neill, other incredible teachers, and 75 wonderful classmates. It was the graduation module, and I have been certified as a Transformational SuperCoach. Which is nice.
But more important than this has been the transformational nature of the whole 9-month experience for me.
Over the past year, I’ve noticed myself becoming quieter and quieter inside, living (most of the time) in that wondrous place of true well-being, love, connection and peace. I call it being ‘Home’. It has nothing to do with the physical world of form. It had always been there, of course – I just didn’t know it. With the benefit of hindsight, I can now look back and recognise the glimpses of Home throughout my life. What’s different is that Home is now where I live, rather than the occasional blissful holiday visit.
And I’ve seen that it is completely separate and unconnected to the circumstances of my life.
Home is the place where I get inspired, re-awakened to the vitality and aliveness of Life, where I remember who I really am.
Home is Love. Home is Connection with everything. Home is a knowing that everything will be OK – always has been, always will be.
Funnily enough though, my most profound awakening happened last week as I sat alone in a café, reflecting and watching the beautiful sun set over the ocean.
We all live in the feeling of our thinking, moment to moment. Yes, I knew that.
My thinking is not me. The incessant chatter, the voice inside my head is not me. There is something before this that’s much more essentially me. My consciousness which is connected to all things. Yes, I knew that.
But now I suddenly really saw it. Do you remember the film “The Matrix” where reality can be frozen or slowed down, and you get those amazing special effects? That was sort of what happened. For a few moments, I watched in jaw-dropping wonder as I experienced what was before and behind my physical reality.
Suppose you were to look at three objects I put in front of you – a cup, a pen and a flower, and I then asked you “Which of these objects is you?”.
Obviously, you’d say “none of them. I’m the one looking at the things you put in front of me. It doesn’t matter what you put in front of me, it’s always going to be me looking at them”.
Now, see that this is also true of the voice inside. It doesn’t make any difference what the voice is saying – whether it’s nice, or whether it’s scary, or whether it’s insecure, or downright nasty, or whether it’s happy. You are the one who is aware of it.
You are not your thinking, you are the one who is aware of it. People go through so many changes in the name of trying to “find themselves”. They want to discover which of their voices, which of their thinking, which aspects of their personality is who they really are.
The answer is simple: none of them.
If you begin to pay attention as the witnesser, you will come to see that much of what the voice says is completely meaningless. The truth is that most of life will unfold in accordance with forces far outside your control, regardless of what your thinking thinks about it. It’s like sitting down at night and deciding whether the sun will come up or not tomorrow morning. You can think about things all you want, but in fact your thoughts have far less impact on this world than you think. They have no effect on anybody, except you. They are simply making you feel better or worse about what is going on now, what has gone on in the past, and what might go on in the future.
You then begin to see that there is really no point in trying to figure everything out, or to ‘control’ things – whether external circumstances, or your own thinking. You will see that the cause of all your problems is not life itself, but the constant commotion your mind makes about life.
Enlightenment begins when you see that the essential YOU is the one deep inside who is aware. It is the doorway to the depths of your being – and this is to stand on the threshold of a fantastic inner journey.
Come to know the one who watches and witnesses and is just aware, without judging –silent, neutral, wise – pure consciousness – and you will come to know one of the great mysteries and wonders of creation.